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At the risk of turning this more into a dream journal than a regularly updated brain-garbage dumpster, I have to record another strange dream I had last night.
 
I was driving through a field and came across a huge cloth bubble, something like a cross between that sectioned off area in the first X-Files movie and a Christo sculpture. I drove into it and then out the other side into an alternate universe where space was not contiguous. I could tell this was the case because I immediately found myself looking at a series of optical illusions that were no longer illusions because of the strange properties in this universe. Once I had figured that out, I turned around into a crowd of people, some of which were tied to each other with long ropes. Since there was no way to map your location in this universe, you could easily lose whomever you were interacting with if they left your sight, To keep that from happening people would tie themselves to each other while conversing, then untie themselves when they no longer needed to continue talking to one another. Definitely no long term relationships here! In this world it was also illegal to have a photo of yourself -- whoever was in control had an army of robot butterflies that flew around enforcing the law, which was much more frightening than that sounds. There was some kind of resistance group, but obviously they weren't able to organize very well. I wandered around for a while and never found my way out before I woke up. Or maybe that is how I found my way out... 
 
Now onto the waking realm and my recent adventures in Americana.
 
Went to Bean Blossom for the Bill Monroe Bluegrass Festival which was really pretty fun, especially since I got to spend the whole weekend with my grandma. She now has a cat that my uncle took in a while ago and every morning she hand feeds it a slice of cheese. 
 

 
She calls her kitty a few different names including Pumpkin, Socks and She-Cat. The night before the show, we went grocery shopping for our next day's lunch and grandma had to pick up a pack of cheese for her cat. I found a package of generic store brand cheese that was just a dollar, but apparently this cat only eats Kraft singles. Fancy cat is fancy!
 
So after showering, dressing, having some breakfast and loading up the car, we were off to Bean Blossom! It didn't take us long to get there and as you can imagine, the venue was pretty easy to find. 
 Goth Girl Amongst the Banjos ) 
After about three encores, his set ended. There were a couple other bands after him, but grandma and I had already seen them earlier so we headed home. Somehow I missed the interstate exit and had to drive through downtown Indy. Grandma hadn't been downtown in probably twenty years so she was a little overwhelmed. She did not like all the lights and people running around at that time of night. (Obviously I did not inherit that trait!) We eventually did make it home, grandma went on and on about how much fun she had, which made me feel pretty good. After years of her doing all sorts of nice things for me, I'm glad I had a chance to show her how much I appreciate her in my life. And I had a lovely time too!
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Gosh o' mighty! Not counting yesterday's weirdly symbolic dream entry, it's been a while... I've been working my fingers off recently, so I do have a good excuse for not doing much personal writing as of late. That does need to change though -- I need to make journaling a priority for myself again.  
 
So what's been shakin' for the past couple weeks? I turned another year older and on this spin around the merry-go-round I had to renew my driver's license. I also became an organ donor. I have no idea why I hadn't signed up sooner, especially since I know what it's like to lose a loved one to kidney failure, but that little oversight has now been taken care of. Hopefully if I'm in an accident the EMT's will take care of me and won't just stand around waiting for me to die so they can salvage some spare parts. No, I have not seen Repo the Musical. 
 
Went to Park of Roses and took some photos. My favorite rose they have is the Lagerfeld, but it wasn't in bloom yet. My second favorite, Blueberry Hill, was though. Here's a photo of her: 
 

 
I always think of The Little Prince when I go to Park of Roses. I'd love to organize a Neo-Victoian/Steampunk/Romanti-Goth picnic there at some point this summer, complete with croquet, badminton and bocce ball. However, I do not have a croquet, badminton or bocce ball set. Anyone interested in planning this with me? I think it would be absolutely wonderful!
 
 

More words broken up by photos broken up by words )

 
I've been listening to a lot of Bix Beiderbecke and Josephine Baker lately. I'm totally convinced the world would be a happier place if everyone spent fifteen minutes a day playing twenties jazz.

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Finally finished up a bunch of work and got new batteries for my camera, so a real post is coming post haste. Until I find time for that, I wanted to check in just to record a strange dream I had last night. 
 
I was traveling with a motor-caravan across some old dilapidated highway when the car I was in passed an ancient, large bus. I looked in the windows as I went by and saw all these elephants and rhinos tied up in little bundles hanging from the ceiling of the bus. At some point, the caravan stopped and I went into the bus to look around at all the pachyderms swaying in their little rope nets. I asked the driver if they were comfortable and why they were so small. He told me they had been shrunk for easier transport and they were in a sort of hypnotic trance so they would not get motion sickness during the journey, but once they got where we were going they'd be returned back to their normal size and be de-hypnotized. Then it was time to go so I got back into my car and took my place among the other machines.
 
I have a slight idea of what this may mean, but it's only a slight idea.
 
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Soooo... I'm hoping everyone had a lovely Memorial Day weekend. I know I did!
 
First off Saturday afternoon, [info]maleficone and I stopped by Marcon. Unfortunately no one in the dealer's room had an TOS woman's uniform for sale. Seriously, something is rotten in fandom when I can't get a science officer's mini dress. Still, there was quite a bit of steampunk paraphernalia present as well as new Who, lots of books and the obligatory sharp pointy things courtesy of[info]mzmadmike, his wonderful wife and adorable kids. Ran into[info]xrmndml at the bar of course. Since he's not in Columbus too often, I took [info]matheon to Northstar to try the best veggie burger in the universe, then later met up again at Church. Hopefully I was a decent hostess. Still kicking myself for missing[info]msomega and the various room parties. Oh well. Onward and forward to next year!
 
Sunday was spent mostly unwinding by reading a biography about Mata Hari. For WWI's most notorious femme fatale, she really wasn't all that glamorous or even much of a spy during the war. Her early years as a pseudo-Eastern dancer are what fascinates me most. At five foot nine inches tall, dark haired and flat chested (sound familiar?) she was not the epitome of beauty for her time. She didn't begin dancing until after she married and had two children with her military officer husband. They were stationed in Indonesia and while there she began emulating the dress and dance of the natives -- most shocking for a European lady! After the death of one of her children and her husband's increasing alcohol fueled abuse, she left for Paris. Now this is a lady who had absolutely nothing, and goes from divorced (unheard of!) military wife to the first woman who actually made stripping respectable. Not that she completely bared all. When she first arrived in Paris, she attempted to get work as an artists' model, but her small breasts which expanded then shriveled up during her two pregnancies, were now what vulgar Parisian men referred to as "tobacco pouches". Quite pictorial, huh? Recognizing her deficits in that arena, she fashioned an early type of padded brassiere which she never took off even while playing the courtesan to her many lovers. When asked why she never bared her breasts she would tell her paramours about how a former lover flew into a drunken jealous rage and bit off her nipples one night. How awesome is that?! Her decent into espionage has its humorous moments but is still depressing overall. She really did get a bum wrap from French intelligence trying to cover their mistakes. If anyone has seen Kubrick's Paths of Glory, you can easily imagine where her story goes. Next up I'll be reading a biography about Pre-Raphaelite super model Jane Morris. (Yes, she and Lizzie Siddal were a super models by the sheer fact that they were world famous as the faces of that art movement, much as Twiggy was the face of Carnaby Street mod fashion.) Something about those tall, dark haired women I can relate to.
 
Having Monday off, I indulged in my favorite thing to do -- I got to peruse the antique shops and thrift stores! Found a cute little black eyelet sundress to wear to the Beanblossom Bluegrass Festival next month and a full, summer skirt that twirls perfectly. And even though I do not have a stereoscope, I picked up these slides. Judging from the words printed printed on the backs of each picture, the Victorians enjoyed a little Schadenfreude as much as we postmodernists do. 
 
 

3-D Vision is Nothing New.  ) 
And last but not least, some more neo-Victoriana -- two 19th Century long distance lovers trying to communicate their passion for one another. In other words, sexting by telegraph.
 

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No excuses -- just a rambling update and photodump.

I now have to go in to work an hour earlier, which means I get to leave an hour earlier. It also means I have to wake up earlier and go to bed earlier. I am not an early bird and I do not like worms. It is nice coming home at five, though.

Saw Star Trek and really did like it. There were a few things that bothered me though:

 

Set Phasers to Nit-Picky! )


Last week I did something way outside the norm for me. I bought two tickets to the Bill Monroe Bluegrass Festival in Beanblossom, Indiana and I am taking my grandmother for a girls' day out. The two main fellows behind the O Brother, Where Art Thou soundtrack will be performing, so at least I'll know a few of the songs. Not wanting to be completely unprepared for this cultural experience, I looked up some of the other performers and through them found a genre I didn't realize existed (although it makes total sense): Gothic Bluegrass. Makes sense for the sheer fact alone that a lot of bluegrass lyrics deal with death, dying, killing your lover, being killed by your lover and general depression and decay. Anyway, I'm now looking forward to hearing some music I don't know much about and spending time with my grandma. I'll either get burned at the stake or have a wonderful time.

 

And now for some random photos. )


If all goes as planned, [info]maleficone and I will be at Marcon Saturday. I seem to have misplaced my Spock ears and need a new pair. Really that isn't such a frivolous purchase. They do double duty when I play my elven mage in D&D.
 

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Any time the vets are out selling their poppies, I always buy one mostly because it's for a good cause but also because I like poppies. I have three of the little red silk flowers in my gargoyle pencil cup at work and over the past couple of days I noticed one of them was missing. When I looked in the bottom of the cup I found it had been pushed in all the way and got a little crumpled. A pen had leaked onto the petals as well, but instead of ruining the flower, it only made it look more realistic:
 

 
I know there's a Velveteen Rabbit-esque allegory to this, but it's the end of the day and I'm too tired to go searching for it right now.
 
Recent food discoveries include the Giant Eagle Market brand of pistachio gelato (tastes more like ice cream than real gelato but it's still really, really good) and the fact that the Asian grocery across from my apartment sells whole and half Peking ducks! A half duck is about $6.50 and a whole bird will run you around $10, plus if you get a whole duck the head is still attached which is partly why I opted for the half duck. While the deli clerk was slicing it up for me I also noticed their giant tank of live fish, two big buckets of live soft shell crabs and a large tray of the biggest bullfrogs I've ever seen. I've had frog legs, but I wonder if there's an Asian delicacy that uses the whole frog. It's probably better that I don't find out.
 
And speaking of Far-Eastern cuisine, my fortune cookie for the day gave me this nugget of advice -- The man on the top of the mountain did not fall there. 
 
No, but chances that he'll fall to his death or get mangled, killed and buried by an avalanche while he's up there are pretty good!
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Look what I saw scampering around the Statehouse yesterday:
 
No, it's not a photo of Dennis Kucinich. ) 
 
My camera autocorrected his little red eyes. Isn't he cute? I need to start carrying walnuts in my pocket for just this sort of event.
 
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The weekend went wonderfully well. (Nothing like a little alliteration to start things off with, eh?) D and I went to see Wolverine Friday, which did not follow the comic book all that closely but was still enjoyable in a popcorn munching, watching stuff blow up kind of way. Aside from a few cheesy "Noooooooooooo!!!!!" moments I'd say it was a decent movie for what it was. Gambit is not supposed to be so baby-faced and should have a N'awlins accent plus there was not enough nekkid Jackman ass for me. You can't have everything I guess. 
 
Had another shoot Sunday afternoon with the lovely and talented Jay Mueller and I can't wait to see the results! In preparation for the session I went to Undone, the lingerie shop that just opened in the Short North and picked up a pretty pair of lacey boy shorts. I think I'm going to have to start buying my underwear there because it's partly owned by an adorable gal from Britain who says "knickers" instead of panties. Too effing cute. 
 
On the other hand the work week has not started off so swimmingly. I started my new hours at the office -- 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. Good to get out an hour earlier, not so good to have to wake up an hour earlier. But being the trooper that I am, I was prepared and had everything ready to go this morning. I even made it to the bus stop by 7 so I wouldn't have to give up my morning coffee/news paper/everything bagel routine before going in. As soon as the bus pulled up, I reached into my pocket to find my bus pass had vanished. Great. As everyone else piled in, I had to go back to the apartment, retrace my steps, search the ground along my route and not find a damned thing. I grabbed some change and swearing to myself about how I was going to have to blow another forty-five bucks replacing my card, I shambled back to the shelter. Apparently the Public Transportation gods were smiling upon me, because there on the bench sat my bus pass waiting patiently for my return. Still made it to the office by 8, but no everything bagel for me this morning. I also fell down the steps going to the coffee machine, which is just a reminder that I should only drink hot beverages when someone else prepares them for me. 
 
I wanted to post this video, but they won't let me. Anyway, Bob Geldof is hot and I wish more men would wear their hair that way.
 
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All this talk of the Swine Flu reminds me of this painting from the fantastique Félicien Rops. I give you Pornokrates:
 

 
Rops was obsessed with erotica, Satanism, death and decay. The prostitutes and perverts who populate his drawings and paintings always seem to have this attitude of triumph, whether they have gloriously voluptuous bodies or are withered and rotting. Baudelaire adored him and really, his art is the epitome of what decadence truly is. Depravity never looked so good.
 
Not much to report from my little corner of the world. This Sunday I have another session with the wonderful Jay Mueller, a decadent style artist in his own right. He will be showing some paintings and photos at 87 during Gallery Hop this weekend. I've also been enjoying this rainy weather and can't wait for the lilacs to start blooming. As always, it's lovely to spend some drinking time with [info]mizz_cherry  and [info]maleficone, Kat Von D makes some damn good lipstick ([info]mokosh_perun , whenever you need to go back to Sephora I'm so there), I desperately need to see the Wolverine movie (i.e. nekkid Hugh Jackman with claws and mutton chops -- RAWR!), still need to go to the CMA for the Egyptian art exhibit and I want to soak up all the butterflies at Franklin Park Conservatory.
 
Bonus fact: I freaking LOVE Laughing Cow cheese!
 
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So I have finally succumbed to the Twitter epidemic. I guess this means I now have to get a cell phone and learn to (shudder) TEXT. Ew. If you are into such things, feel free to say hello there. Or tweet hello. Or whatever the appropriate verb to use is. I'm Tamara_Rose, same as here.
 
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Damon got a write up in 366 Weird Movies! I've read a few articles written by this fellow and he definitely knows his stuff. The author is the writer, director and lead actor in W (no, not that W) and has won a few experimental movie awards on the independent film circuit. 
 
There will be another article about Checkmate, a short video we did several years ago, coming out this Tuesday. How freaking cool is that?
 
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See what happens when China becomes a capitalist nation? Confucius gets replaced by Ayn Rand. Suck it, Chairman Mao!
 
 
 
Sure, you have duties, but what about your duties to yourself?
 

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Now that April 15th has passed the office just exudes tranquility and calm. Not so last night as I made my way through a herd of angry teabaggers (snerk). Honestly, those far right conservative morons have no idea how to hold a proper demonstration. First lesson: do not name your political movement after a male gay stripper move.
 
You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means. ) 
 
All in all the whole spectacle seemed to be less of a political rally and more like a backwoods family reunion. People brought their children, dogs and family members who happened to be veterans, all leashed and draped in flags of course. In general they were all well behaved and content to stand around in the cold damp air brandishing their mildly racist banners. Someone somewhere in the distance would talk for a bit, then they would applaud. I did get shooed off the Statehouse parapet but talked the nice security woman into letting me snap that last photo before I left. My regular COTA stop was obviously closed for this event, so I had to walk a few blocks to pick up the bus. As I was leaving the area I did hear a rather chilling snippet of what the speaker was saying:
 
"We know we are right."
 
Even more frightening when that little gem elicited the loudest roar from the audience I heard while I was there. 
  
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Do try some more of the Thomas Hardy! I love this poem because it's an great example of Hardy's treatment of the fallen, sinful woman compared to the supposed virtuous and ascetic farm girl.
  
The Ruined Maid by Thomas Hardy
"O 'Melia, my dear, this does everything crown!
Who could have supposed I should meet you in Town?
And whence such fair garments, such prosperi-ty?
O didn't you know I'd been ruined?" said she.

"You left us in tatters, without shoes or socks,
Tired of digging potatoes, and spudding up docks;
And now you've gay bracelets and bright feathers three!"
"Yes: that's how we dress when we're ruined," said she.

"At home in the barton you said 'thee' and 'thou,'
And 'thik oon,' and 'theäs oon,' and 't'other'; but now
Your talking quite fits 'ee for high compa-ny!"
"Some polish is gained with one's ruin," said she.

"Your hands were like paws then, your face blue and bleak
But now I'm bewitched by your delicate cheek,
And your little gloves fit as on any la-dy!"
"We never do work when we're ruined," said she.

"You used to call home-life a hag-ridden dream,
And you'd sigh, and you'd sock; but at present you seem
To know not of megrims or melancho-ly!"
"True. One's pretty lively when ruined," said she.

"I wish I had feathers, a fine sweeping gown,
And a delicate face, and could strut about Town!"
"My dear -- a raw country girl, such as you be,
Cannot quite expect that. You ain't ruined," said she.
 

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I had a rather bizarre Easter weekend. First up Friday night, D and I went to see Question Mark and the Mysterians who were amazing. Original line up of the original punk band from 1964. I swear the lead singer (the man who changed his name to a symbol when Prince was still in diapers) did not stop moving the entire time he was on stage. Apparently he had aspirations to become a dancer on American Bandstand but ended up going a little funny in the head -- he claims he's from Mars, lived with the dinosaurs and refuses to be seen without his sunglasses -- and then fronting a band named after a Japanese sci-fi movie. Because really, what else are you going to do?

Can't get enough of you in that red leopard print angel wing blouse )

Saturday being a washout, I called my grandmother Easter Day and found out a former step-cousin (my uncle and her mother were married when I was nine and divorced when I was twelve) had been killed in a car accident about ten years ago. I wasn't particularly close with this person in my adult life, but for the short span of time we were related we were always staying over at each others for the weekend. We were roughly the same age at a particularly obnoxious period of life for a girl -- somewhere between singing the Shaving Cream Song at the top of our lungs and comparing training bra fastening techniques, fantasizing about Rick Springfield and chasing down the ice cream truck. Knowing she died ten years ago already gave me a sense of detachment about the whole thing, but not seeing her in over twenty years and having only images of her as a young girl made hearing the news about her death even stranger. It's so eerie to know this girl I shared part of my childhood with is now gone forever. I always thought we'd run into each other, go have drinks and talk about how we'd still do Rick Springfield. Whatever that means.
 

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Quite possibly the most exquisite chair ever to grace a front parlor:
 

 
The upholstery is hand tattooed leather created by Scott Cunningham's Mama Tried Studios. At $4000 it's a bit pricey for a chair, but really not too bad for a tattoo of that size and quality. I imagine the ivory leather will only become more beautiful with age.
 
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